I have been tagged in a blog-along thingy to write about why I write. This is not the post that will address that. However thinking about the blog, my business and how it all fits together has been bubbling away in my mind. When I started the blog I worried that I posted too often and bombarded my followers. Now I feel that I have abandoned my blog, and my readers. I have been reflecting on why this has happened and realised that writing here at some point shifted from something that I loved to do, that was like therapy, to something that I had to do but couldn’t seem to find time for.
I have decided that I want to rediscover some of the joy I had from blogging, so will try to post little bits and pieces more regularly. I think I have also been trying to balance not writing about all the hard stuff in my life, and when things are really hard it means that I don’t write at all. This, then, is a quick snapshot of what is happening in my life at the moment, with little bits of the hard stuff included.
After years of juggling a high pressured career, and being an organised single parent, and having a neat and tidy home, cared for garden, and an organised house, now that I am home full time I seem to run late for everything, never catch up on folding and sorting the laundry, have truly dirty floors, and forget important dates on a regular basis. I don’t seem to have time to blog, to sew, to bake, to hang out with my friends, and yet I am allegedly a ‘lady of leisure’! Now part of it is getting sucked into the vortex of the internet and losing time that way. But there is more to it than that. I suspect it is going to take me a while to adjust to this whole concept of creating my own structure, rather than responding to the structure of an office job.
I am setting myself small targets this week. First of all to clear the back order of custom orders that I have. Then to spend a day working through the house from front to back and returning it to order and cleanliness. (I almost added five more things to the list, but if I can do these two I will be very happy!)
I am also back to wondering about the ‘scope’ for my business. After deciding that I would focus on bags and accessories I find myself making bibs, doing a custom order for bunting, making up heat packs stencilled for another custom order, cushion covers for yet another, whipping up a pillowcase for another, and generally drifting back to making anything that comes along. This might be contributing to my feeling of being overwhelmed! I can’t make everything that exists under the sun, no matter how much I want to! What I can do is choose my scope, and stick to it, and make those things really well. (Gee – did that sound like a pep talk to you? )
Bags and accessories and bibs. That is a broad category. It is enough. This might be my new mantra!
On the topic of bags I can share that I designed and made a laptop bag for my eldest chick earlier in the week. She has her own laptop now, in preparation for starting high school next year, and in moving between her father’s house and mine it has looked a big too naked and vulnerable being carried in her arms! I decided that she needed something that reflected a bit of her personality, but could also grow with her. This is the end result!
I have had some great feedback on the bag and am thinking that adding this style to my bag range is worth a try.
I can also update you about further developments for the artist in residence. After her successful appearance at the exhibition, and being approached to sell her painting, this week she had one of her drawings appear in our local newspaper to launch a survey of the Gang-Gang – a native bird that is the faunal emblem for Canberra. Needless to say she is thrilled and I couldn’t be prouder. I am going to have to start recording a portfolio for her!
My beautiful boy is still struggling with school, and with coping that anything that changes the direction that he thinks he is following, but we have managed to have one fantastic day this week, and a couple of good recoveries from incidents. The good moments, or days, make the not-so-good ones easier to cope with. He is now living with me 100%, after some changes in his father’s life meant that it was best to change our care arrangements. I shared on Facebook that I was fortunate to have him living with me, then added that I am not trying to be a hero, or downplay how difficult it is to parent him, but if I don’t see myself as fortunate I will probably break.
So here we are. Pottering along with life, trying to work out how to survive financially, caring for my children, and having a creative brain that is in constant overdrive with new ideas of things to make. I am pretty lucky really!
I hope that you are having a good week.