Although I have plenty more to tell you about and share with you about my human brochure experience (which continues to be quite awesome) it is time to return to regular programming and talk about sewing, or not sewing, family, growing, learning, etc. All the fun stuff that makes being alive interesting!
The last two weeks have been a bit tumultuous in the nest. We tried a change in the boy’s medication and it was less than successful. While we seem to be back on the right path now, it has been a rough road for him, the school, and the family. He has been at home with me most days for the last fortnight, and has needed a lot of support. And that means very little sewing. I have custom orders cut out and ready to go…. but haven’t quite got to the machine. Luckily I am keeping an eye on all my time lines and don’t think any of them will be late……. if all goes to plan! Instead of sewing he and I have built some impressive indoor forts.
However, once again, the stress and trauma have provided life lessons and room for growth. I was very stressed, and felt under pressure in dealing with the boy’s father, worrying about my inability to work (and therefore earn income), and not being able to keep up with other commitments. I let it get to me, and felt that the sky was falling. Strangely enough this was not helping the situation at all. (Yes you can imagine me rolling my eyes at my self at this point.) Unfortunately I let the eldest chick (the one who carries all our worries on her shoulders despite my best efforts) see my stress, and become a part of it. It has weighed heavily on her when I have calmed down and moved on. Big lesson there about not catastrophizing, and keeping some perspective!
I also sat down with the boy and talked to him about how he and I needed to work together to help each other to find a way through these problems. It gave him and I a new perspective, and we have spent the last two days celebrating the good in each other, and helping each other to deal with things going wrong. He has been coaching me in kicking a football (so supportive and encouraging with his non-sporty mother) and I have been helping him with strategies to stay calm when he feels frustrated. Between the two of us we have had some good days. The house is chaotic, I have done no work, and I am behind in all sorts of things, but my stress levels are much lower, and he is much happier. Big reminders for me about focussing on the important stuff, and letting go of the small stuff.
Through all of this there have been some wonderful moments. I had a meeting with one of the owners of Handmade Canberra (you know – the place where I sell my bags and bibs, the people who organise the markets that I attend, and the place I rave about) and have agreed to do some work for them. A bit of admin work, background stuff, and advertising pieces. All ‘stuff’ that I enjoy, and a nice little piece of steady work to help balance the books with the bank! I am very excited about the possibilities that this work will bring, and working with these lovely ladies, so am doing little happy dances up and down on the inside! Plus it still leaves me time to sew, to grow my business and have flexibility to be with my family when they need me.
I was also fortunate enough to accompany the eldest chick on her interview to attend the high school that we have chosen for her. She spoke with poise, grace, intelligence and a nice level of humour. The principal who was interviewing her was warm, intelligent and caring. I am hopeful that our application will be successful as I think this school will be very good for her.
The artist in residence has attended her first school camp this week and returned dishevelled, tired and very happy with her adventures!
I also made it to one human brochure experience at a new boutique brewery that I will write about in more detail soon, but which was a delightful experience (and this from someone who doesn’t really drink beer).
Then tonight I was able to have a last minute RSVP to an amazing experience at the National Gallery of Australia in an outdoor installation called ‘Within Without’ by James Turrell. We had a talk from the curator, with background on the artist, the installation, etc, then were able to watch dusk through the skyscape.
I am going to do more research on this installation and then write more about it, as this will rate as one of the best visual experiences I have had in my life. Photos don’t do the experience justice – it is something that you need to see for yourself. It was calm, peaceful and moving. Just what I needed to help recentre myself.
While this week has been less than fun on many levels, it has also shown me that my decision to forgo a big salary and ambitious career, and to instead be self employed and not very wealthy, but to have the flexibility to have time with my family, to support them, and to make a new path for us was the right one. Now if I can just manage some sewing……..